Letting Go of Holding On, Surrendering to Not Knowing, Opening to the Mystery of Becoming

A guided meditation for feelings of powerlessness, frustration and stuckness.


In this free audio talk and process / meditation, you'll find out:

  • How to embrace feeling triggered and work with it (especially useful to prepare for Christmas and family gatherings – a time ripe with opportunities to feel your “old stuff” coming up!)

  • Why you don't need to “fix” yourself – or others

  • How to stop rejecting and projecting unwanted feelings and parts of yourself

  • What your ego's conditioning is doing to your nervous system and why

  • Why it's crucial to step out of shaming and blaming yourself for feeling how you're feeling


We'll practice:

  • Leaning towards the feelings for compassionate witnessing, instead of silencing them or pushing them away

  • Stepping into wider consciousness, and surrendering to trusting in the spaces of our "not knowing"

  • Observing unconscious beliefs and re-evaluating them based on your Soul's present-day values

I recommend listening to this recording with headphones for better sound, and I invite you to pause the recording as needed when you feel the need to spend more time in silence with the process.


"Letting Go of Holding On, Surrendering to Not Knowing, Opening to the Mystery of Becoming"

These words come from a Sufi zikr (similar to a mantra), which I learnt during the season I spent at the Abode of the Message, a Sufi community in the mountains of Upstate New York, a few years ago. The words have kept on resonating since then and they form part of the path of the heart that I seek to walk. They have inspired this meditation.

I recorded this audio (complete with sounds of trains in the background, passing right by where I was sitting at the time when the inspiration came to record this...) just at the start of this Mercury retrograde period we're in until December 23rd, as we move towards Christmas and the holiday season.

Hopefully it can be helpful at any time though, if you're feeling unsettled or need help to ground and allow things to flow through you...

This period, for many of us, can bring up a lot of challenging old patterns to the foreground

They are coming up to be seen and worked through - but it can be difficult to stay grounded and to trust in the perfect unfolding of things...

For a lot of us, it feels as though everything we've been learning or working on is suddenly being brought back up in our face and that we're experiencing the “one step forward – two steps backwards” motion around any progress we've felt we had made on certain issues, on our mindset, on our triggers, on our sense of self-worth, self-love, security.


Frustration, powerlessness, tension and fear that “it's never going to change” can all be coming up strongly in our mindbody at the moment

That's the whole uncomfortable purpose of Mercury retrograde: to revisit, reassess, confirm, feel the feelings and make sure we're really integrating the lessons of the last months / year.


This recording is designed to support you in grounding and trusting, coming in contact with deep feelings from a place of Self-love and an expanded space of consciousness, to help you integrate and transform your relationship with the conditioning you are experiencing in your somatic, “felt-sense” awareness.


Check out this article from The Power Path which sums up the theme of the "upgrade" that we're going through and gives a lot of food for thought (and then come back here to listen in on the meditation!) : https://thepowerpath.com/monthly-forecast/december-2017-monthly-forecast/


This Mercury Retrograde is also in Sagittarius, the sign of truth-seeking.

We're focusing on looking at old conditioning and have an opportunity to go within, observe what's there, and question what we observe:

  • Is the embodied emotional experience coming up in this situation really relevant for my present-day Self?
  • Does it belong to a past version of myself?
  • Does it come from an outdated understanding of who I am, who I could be, what I want to be in the world?
  • Does it come from what others have defined as what is worthy? Can I find my own definition for that now, from my Soul's core values?

This meditation will help you ask these questions in a way that is not about pushing away your experience or making yourself wrong for feeling what you're feeling, but rather experiencing it all safely, and then seeing where you're ready for something new to emerge and unfold from you centre.

The recording includes a 10 minutes introductory talk and the meditation in itself is roughly 30 minutes.

Hope you enjoy it, if you do, please take time to share it and let me know how you like it in the comments, through my Facebook page.

In my Inner Alchemy practice, I work with people who struggle with unconscious, stuck patterns, trauma and conditioning that they feel is limiting them.

If you're experiencing patterns of anxiety, fears, depression, low self-worth, feeling "blocked" in external repetitive situations... Inner Alchemy sessions can help you turn these challenges around and find the gold that's there for you.

Working with me, you will be guided to journey deep within to access the wisdom of your unconscious, so that you can see how these are all ways that the Soul is calling for growth and integration. I will show you how to create the transformations needed within yourself, so that you feel free to be yourself fully, and so you can access the vitality, the joy and the wealth of what is possible for you.

Until December 20th, 2017, I am offering a £60 discount on my 6 sessions package.



To learn more and find out if this approach would suit your needs, schedule your FREE 45 minutes initial consultation by emailing me at jessica@createinneralchemy.com or calling 07422 636 225.